New Feet, New Year

 

Put your best foot forward. 

That would be my left one. Yeah. I actually know which is my best foot…  

I had hoped December would have been more of a month of reflection. It’s just been another month of tackling challenges. 

I’ve started in early on a resolution to have pretty, princessy feet for next year. 

So it’s twice daily foot spa and once daily pills. Crazy strong pills. No alcohol and no other medications for me!

I will be missing out on a New Years Eve toast, but what is that compared to having presentable, non… non- contagious, healthy toes?

This month also brought me inconclusive lack of news. 

I am still waiting on some medical test results. Sending samples off to the lab before the holidays is never a good idea. Two weeks crawls into three. They should have just told me I wouldn’t have results in hand until next year, but that sounds like a long way off, right? 

December gave me some design work. It’s been a little stressful, but the work hasn’t interfered with any grand plans. I mean, I didn’t exactly make any. There is another timeline where I organized an underground, shamanistic rave in TJ… but you know… I’m not in that timeline… so… 

I am grateful for the work.  It’s creative! It’s income! Yay!

And then there is the challenge of my ever lovin’ female cycle. For a second month, my body completely dropped it’s immune defenses and let me get sick.  It. Let. Me.  Just me! No one else became ill! 

Two months in a row I’ve fought off fevers. After Thanksgiving I got a case of food poisoning. Then Christmas day I was in bed with a cold/flu/whatever. Bones, joints, skin- all hurting -again. And because I started this liver destroying regiment, I could not take anything to diminish the pain or the histamine response. I’m still coughing the rest of it out of my system.  Bless the cold months, eh? 

At least I’ve got a head start on a resolution. 

I want my new feet to walk me more confidently into the new year.  

I feel optimistic about it. 

What do you feel optimistic about heading into 2018?

                               

Scintillating Awe

{photo: google search- scintillate events}

Are you ready to welcome the longest night (northern hemisphere) / day (southern hemisphere)?

It’s December 21st, if you’ve been confused by the rest of the holidays during this general time of year.

I know, there are several to keep track of.

What ever you are celebrating this season do it with gusto. There’s this Spanish guy called Al.. Al Gusto..

It’s a bilingual pun… # sorry not sorry

And so while you and Al Gusto get along famously, I would like to also wish everyone awe.

At least one moment of it. Some awe.  Yes. Awesome.

Be in awe that you have lived in your body long enough to witness such times-

Such injustice.

Such brilliance.

Such mediocrity.

Such loss.

Such exuberant joy – (Because there was that one time… Remember it?)

Look at those around you with a sense of awe.

Remember those who came before and those who traveled ahead of you with awe.

Be in awe of knowing they are not gone for the hints of them left with you. 

Be in awe of your slow steps and setbacks along your path.

Be in awe of how much work you put in and how it paid off in ways you couldn’t have imagined.

Be in awe of the dark spots that work to highlight the glitter bits, and vice versa.

To sparkle means to fluctuate between light and dark.

Reality scintillates. So do you.

Awe-yeah.

Happy Thanksgiving

All are welcome at my table.

(So what if my holiday got a little ‘Cronenberged?’) (See: Film- Naked Lunch)

Instead of swatting this little dive bomber down (fyi: adult cockroaches do have flight capacity), I shared a bit of my granola with a bug that had been knocking about my room for an hour or so. You can see a piece of peanut here in the video being eagerly handled.

That’s a content little dude right there.

I did send the mischief maker outside though.

I wasn’t going to spend the whole night playing hide and seek.